I wanted to destroy my EGO. In all my pseudo-intellectual philosophizing, I did not know how much it hurt. I did not know how attached I had become to my life as it was...
I did not know until I watched it unravel with an audience of my family, friends and associates. I was so consumed by embarrassment I did not realize what was happening:
CHANGE.
NECESSARY CHANGE.
When you build something its hard to accept its flaws. Investing your success and worth with the success of this "THING", well its disintegration becomes confusing. I thought the death of my "CREATION" was the death of me. But in the wake of this Apocalypse I opened my eyes to the wasteland and found that
LIFE
GOES
ON.
So slowly, surely I continued living.
Like John Carter said, " I still live."
So I decided to LIVE.
Reading List: Unity (the original by Valiant comics) Collected trades I II &IV.(can't
find book III...somewhere in my boxes.)
V for Vendetta. Moore and Lloyd. Time and maturity have improved my
understanding and enjoyment of it.
Lamentations. Old Testament
Listening List: Podcast On Being Unedited - Walter Brueggemann with Krista Tippett
Kind of Blue. Miles Davis.
Time will tell. Bob Marley.
Forest. George Winston
Royal. Lorde
Watching List: Star Trek Enterprise. Season Three.
Anna Lucasta.
Speed Racer.
Ken Burns JAZZ. Episode 8 Risk.
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